I finished my job at ENC this week, very bittersweet...so many details to take care of before I leave, and every once in awhile this panic hits me -- what in the world am I doing?! What am I thinking? and then I'm paralyzed for a bit... until I remember who God is and what he has already done in and through me... and, then I move on.... there really is an advantage to being on the other side of 50 -- there are so many evidences of God's love, grace and leading to look back to.... and they give me energy and faith for what's ahead....
buying, packing... do I need to take this with me?..... learning new technology - blogging, skype, webcam, camcorder.... what do I need to do before I go - mow the lawn, pay bills, spend time with family, remember to tell David this or that.....
can I really do this? this isn't just for a week, it's for 2 months - surrounded by Spanish, studying grammar -- will I have a constant headache?! no English-speaking husband or roomies to talk to at night.....
how will things go at home when I'm gone? homesickness... missing the grandchildren....
and then what will this partnership stuff look like when I return?
guess I need to focus.....
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You'll be a ok! God has led you here and God will bless you abundantly for this! And I'm sure you'll pick up the grammar faster than you think. God will be right there jamming it into your head.. HA Ha. I just had an image of that.. weird...
ReplyDeleteAnd I can imagine you'll be homesick, but just keep in mind you'll be back soon. Those two months are going to fly!
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